There are some things in life that simply cannot be explained. Sometimes the heart moves so quickly, the brain doesn't have a moment to rationalize the behavior. I am propelled this way when it comes to love affairs. I don't JUST mean the kind of affair that you have in the shadows, while your lover is at home.
I mean a love affair that is driven by pure lust and emotion. A true 'Wild Heart' affair. 
It starts with a glance. Eyes lock. It precedes. Almost as if a soft whispering reverberates through one another's body language. Then there is the heat. It's hypnotic. It literally drives two people towards one another. The way your stomach becomes twisted in knots when you touch his arm for the first time. That deep engaging smile that quickens your pulse. In a room crowded with people, all you you can see is him. Those eyes.That body. Those beautiful, full lips. 
I would like to say that there have been many..and there have been many..But truly, there has been only one. One man that I completely lose myself over. When it comes to him, I just don't think clearly. He is literally a drug.
The reality is that this man is taken. He is married. That in itself makes us immiscible-no? Well, you can tell that to my brain, but never to my wild heart.
All he needs to do is text or call, or God forbid I should ever see him. My energy literally emulsifies into his.
We shared a brief moment in time. While we were in each other's arms, I cannot explain the feeling I experienced with him, except to say that I felt completely free. Absolutely no restrictions. Infinity stretched limitlessly.
I would do things with him sexually that I would NEVER dream of doing on my own. Nor with anybody else. Ever. Simply because that is what I am driven to do with him. Something is unleashed and nothing could ever be wrong. 
He is strong. Powerful. Charismatic. Gorgeous. And so fucking insatiable...
There is a specific song that always reminds me of him. Sometimes I hear it at a club and I become dizzy, almost as if I am under his spell again.
Though, I realize that to be with him would literally be an end to me.  Maybe that is partially where the attraction lies. Flirting with disaster. Something I have so often done in the past. Maybe he is one of the few vices left that I still hold dear to me.
After all I have learned in my recovery from substance abuse. Even after all the self-knowledge and spiritual growth that I have attained in the past few years. There still lies this deep desire for him..regardless of the outcome..regardless of all the pain that his love would bring..

'Where is the reason, don't blame it on me..blame it on my Wild Heart.." 

xxx
Nick